it hAs been a wHile….

maybe all i wanted to do…
was to run away…
and not get reminded of the fact when i come and see you…

i miss you ah mah…
*hugz….

you….

you were there for the longest time…
are you who i think you are?…
i have been thinking a lot about you lately…

thinking about the days i come see you with your favourite goodies…
thinking about the days i come to bring you for a walk…
thinking about the days…
when i still could hold your hand….

i wish i still could…

as much as i wish it is you…
i wish not to…

for i wish…
you are in a better place…
watching over me….

i love you…
& i miss you…
*hugz…

t!me fLies….

last year today…
my life came to a standstill….

the phone call that shook me up in the morning…
ah mah….
left me…

*hugz…..

it was the time i didn’t have time to get in the order of things..
it was the time i didn’t know how to get in the order of things…
it was the time…all i could do…was remember to breathe..

it was the time…i suddenly remember i was alive..
it was the time…i strangely feel i was afraid of death all over again…
it was the time…i didn’t want to run…

i want to stay…
i want to be there…
to hold your hands…
and touch your toes with the broken skin again…